Are You For Real?

Well ya Happy Bloody Valentine. I am not in a good mood today. I am thinking how much I have let people walk all over me. Cold and selfish inconsiderate morons who take what we have and never think for a second what might happen to us one day when they bloody demand our live should revolve around them and we are not allowed to have a life. After all, who am I? Is my life worth anything?
It is Valentine and there is only one person that deserves all the love that I have never given: Me. Ya, I never cared about myself. I will be a having school assignment to give tomorrow, and a family member will shout at me to buy her groceries immediately or else. I will be spending 4 hours struggling through the buses and on foot. Then, a friend will say in middle of my finals, Omigosh I hv a crisis, and will expect me to talk her through it. I hv spent hours wasting my time over people who never looked back at me. Who forget me in a second. And it hurts. I wish I can be cold and selfish and never care about anyone. Why can't I be like that? Why?
Nobody ever helped me. Not once. I give up. I must learn to judge people through discriminating eyes. I must not let people get to me, wasting my life over other people who simply do not care about anyone else other than themselves.

So yeah. Rant. I never lived a normal life. Look at me. I had a single normal moment since I hit my teens. I never went to a bar. I have not walked into a cinema since 2004. I never lived a normal 20 sth life. I never went on a date. I never seen inside of a club. And people had always taken me for granted to top it off.
Can I have a life? Is it too late for me to start? It is too late.