Boo 2008 (How many of you guys wish it is 1998 ?)

So I managed to finish the essays and applications online for all but one college by the deadline. the last place, I had already sent out the main forms, I just could not finish the supplement form by midnight deadline. For the other places I submitted my applications, I am kind of scared how some of my essays are. I really hope I did not mess up my grammar. I am kinda scared the essays look haphazard. No time to review properly some of the essays. Now, I have to make sure my transcripts, exam results, and all reach in the college offices in time. The worst I tell u guys is CB, they take about 5 weeks to send all ur past standardized score stuff to the schools. Then, financial aid forms to fill. Then then another college application to get done by the 10th. And I think about 3 by the 15th. And a reach school by the 20th.
I really wanted to email 2 of my essays to any one of my blogging friends, to get a 2nd opinion other than my own, but I was doing the essays near the deadline, so time was kinda short to do it, and I was kinda shy to impose :). But thanks for all the support, really helped me to pull through. I never had people telling me I can do it before, so I really appreciate all the supportive friends I have met through the blog world. Thank u for being there guys. I really appreciate it.
So, a lot of stuff to get done this month. And some exams are coming near the month's end.

In the past 2 days, I slept less than 2 hours altogether, forgot to eat my dinners, and then after submitting my last application by 12 am Eastern time deadline, I had crashed and burned. My gastric came back, and I needed sleep so badly.

January, is gonna be a crazy month for me. Uggh.

I can't post the colleges I am applying online but the point is all the places I am trying not only have full rides, but they are really really far from where I am living. Schools down here are really horrible with aid, too much local political stuff involved. Yuck. I had tried and was turned away before.
So, getting away, I feel means I really can make a fresh start for real. No more stifling family members who seem to spit poison at me the more I keep quiet. The only question is, am I good enough for the colleges I am applying? I am kind of wishing I gotten this or that grade higher, or I took that extra course, or a better SAT score, etc,etc.

Well, a NEW Year. I feel the same, actually more sadder. Getting older which I hate. Getting more duller. Have nothing in life. Yeah, expect the back portion of my house is giving out a real bad odor because of the water. Abba was right. Mold attack.